If you’re over the age of 25, was in NZ and remember a time where ‘TV taste’ was non-existent and rather whatever was on channel 2 or 3 at the time you were allowed to watch TV, you might remember Sensing Murder. Sensing Murder was […]
How to get a boyfriend: the fourth therapy session
“Esther, you’ve just listed things that you haven’t done well,” someone tells me at work. “I feel like you’re criticising yourself.” Soaring crashing music. A montage of scenes of me interacting with people flash before your eyes. It’s the time of the movie where the […]
What is hypnotherapy like?
I don’t think a lot of people have ever had hypnotherapy before. Here’s what its like! My go-to fun fact when people make you do those terrible icebreakers (business idea: GOOD icebreakers) is that I got hypnotised to stop eating orange chips. I am a […]
How to get a boyfriend: the third therapy session
I had never realised that my mother was obsessed with the worry that I was going to be raped. After unexpectedly bursting into tears the week before, today we were going to do a deep dive into my mum, since so many of my negative […]
Trying reformer pilates!
I hate exercise but I love reformer pilates. It turns my favourite hobbies, lying down and sitting, into an exercise and I want to tell you all about it. I’ve been going now for about 3 weeks-ish and its been the only exercise I’ve been […]
How To Get A Boyfriend: The Second Therapy Session
I’ve been trying to separate the ‘inner critic’ that’s telling me I’m uninteresting and not pretty from my own thoughts this week. My therapist (MT) tells me that I can’t keep thinking of it as true or as myself / my own voice, but as […]
Booktok: The Song of Achilles book review
There is one quote from The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller that my basic bitch heart loves: ‘I could recognise him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I […]
How to get a boyfriend: the first therapy session
I felt a bit of imposter syndrome when I went to my first therapy session. Like I’m not that fucked up at the moment. Also, because time had passed since the break-in, I wasn’t even feeling that vulnerable about it anymore. Although to be honest, […]
How do I get a boyfriend?
For years this question has haunted me, has been one of my deepest insecurities and is always on my mind: how do I get a boyfriend?
Christmas 2021
What did I do for Christmas 2021? I: Woke up feeling fine and that I was fine with it being like just another day Had instant noodles for breakfast Scrolled on social media watching Youtube and tiktoks in my room by myself, seeing everyone else’s […]