I had never realised that my mother was obsessed with the worry that I was going to be raped. After unexpectedly bursting into tears the week before, today we were going to do a deep dive into my mum, since so many of my negative […]
I’ve been trying to separate the ‘inner critic’ that’s telling me I’m uninteresting and not pretty from my own thoughts this week. My therapist (MT) tells me that I can’t keep thinking of it as true or as myself / my own voice, but as […]
I felt a bit of imposter syndrome when I went to my first therapy session. Like I’m not that fucked up at the moment. Also, because time had passed since the break-in, I wasn’t even feeling that vulnerable about it anymore. Although to be honest, […]
What did I do for Christmas 2021? I: Woke up feeling fine and that I was fine with it being like just another day Had instant noodles for breakfast Scrolled on social media watching Youtube and tiktoks in my room by myself, seeing everyone else’s […]
What do I get up to in my days, weeks, where I have every waking minute to myself? Isn’t it super weird that we are so used to giving our time to other places, like work, friends, fam, significant others that when we get all […]
I envy people who have their heart out on their sleeve. As much as I’ve struggled with opening up to people, I also struggle a lot with showing emotions that aren’t positive. I see other people, who show their unhappiness, annoyance, anger, disappointment and sadness […]
I never thought I’d become that kind of woman who cared about what she weighed. Magazines like Creme and Dolly were still really popular when I was a teenager, and I was lucky enough to grow up in the start of the ‘self love’ phase, […]
“I love learning,” is my go-to line that I trot out in job interviews and conversations where I have to impress someone. And it is true. I do really enjoy learning. I like understanding new things, and I love that there is no pressure for […]
So I better write about my third therapy session before I forget about it. I was supposed to be coming up with phrases that I could say when I froze when being confronted with my therapist, and honestly? I think I’m over it. The first […]
So I went to my second therapy session and I honestly was thinking about revealing my biggest insecurity but instead got sidetracked by the therapist who made me realise that my issues from my first job weren’t really gone. We were talking what I would […]
