Yes I am getting better at dating, by actually doing it. But god, it’s so confusing. I realise I have no idea what I’m looking for. Like yes, I want a guy who respects me, is a good fit and that I have chemistry with; […]
Category: How To Get A Boyfriend
Trying Earnestly on Tinder
If you’re reading this you must really love me or have figured out the best way to Google me, because I’ve stopped linking to my blog on social media so that boys from tinder stop stalking it (it has happened, more than once). It’s just […]
TikTok does not heal childhood trauma
Like a lot of Gen Z and millennials, I am absolutely addicted to social media. Oh yes, it makes me impulse buy things, compare myself to my friends and give me an in-depth knowledge of the conspiracy theory that the Hillsong Church arranged the marriage […]
#daddyissues: How to get a boyfriend
I think if this is the blogpost to make you hate me, this might be it. If you have a great relationship with your dad, this is going to be the one that makes you think I’m ungrateful little bitch – or this could be […]
How to get a boyfriend: the fourth therapy session
“Esther, you’ve just listed things that you haven’t done well,” someone tells me at work. “I feel like you’re criticising yourself.” Soaring crashing music. A montage of scenes of me interacting with people flash before your eyes. It’s the time of the movie where the […]
How to get a boyfriend: the third therapy session
I had never realised that my mother was obsessed with the worry that I was going to be raped. After unexpectedly bursting into tears the week before, today we were going to do a deep dive into my mum, since so many of my negative […]
How To Get A Boyfriend: The Second Therapy Session
I’ve been trying to separate the ‘inner critic’ that’s telling me I’m uninteresting and not pretty from my own thoughts this week. My therapist (MT) tells me that I can’t keep thinking of it as true or as myself / my own voice, but as […]
How to get a boyfriend: the first therapy session
I felt a bit of imposter syndrome when I went to my first therapy session. Like I’m not that fucked up at the moment. Also, because time had passed since the break-in, I wasn’t even feeling that vulnerable about it anymore. Although to be honest, […]
How do I get a boyfriend?
For years this question has haunted me, has been one of my deepest insecurities and is always on my mind: how do I get a boyfriend?
My Carrie Bradshaw moment
I’ve always been in a ‘I don’t want to settle’ type of mentality for a relationship. I want to look at my partner and feel really lucky to have them. Because if I didn’t feel like I had landed a catch, I would have no patience for the things that irritate me. But I’m starting to see that even when you think you’ve found a person that is the best for you, it isn’t enough.